I have managed to find myself in a situation and I seem to be stuck. I am in love with two men. The first one is my Boyfriend of 6 years and the other I’ve known for 2 years. I have never been intimate with the other though I really want too. The other guy is also in an 8 year relationship. Neither of us are married. I am 30 and he is 32. we both love our significant other very much however, we cant seem to stay away from each other. The connection I have with him is explainable. Loving him has not made me love my boy friend any less which is very weird for me. I honestly can’t imagine losing any one of them but if I had to choose one, I’d always choose my boyfriend. The thing is, I don’t want to choose. I don’t want to lose the other guy at all.
The main reason we haven’t been intimate is because we are both scared of how attached we may become after such an encounter. And of course I don’t want to cheat but I believe I already am because I am in love with him. He tells me and shows me he loves me. We both live with our significant other so we don’t speak to each other at nights, unless we meet up and yes, we do meet up. We literally talk all day, sometimes about nothing but it feels like everything.
Bella, I think he wants us to take a short vacation together soon, and I really want to, but I’m scared. I look at my bf every night and I smile cause I love him soo much but how do I stop this “affair”? How do I stop something that I don’t want to end.